Orchard 2019

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Robs 7th Birthday Party (a special one)

Today we partied! When I booked Robs 7th birthday party three weeks out, I was so excited that we found a day we didn't have to share soccer with that I completely forgot it was Fall Break. I thought I was mom winning until I started getting regrets for RSVPs with people telling me they were out of town for the break. Feelings of 'mom winning' dissipated and I was left with that annoying tinge of mom guilt that us mothers probably feel way more than we should. This has just been a very challenging season of life with a lot of things weighing heavily on me. Me messing up my sons birthday was just the icing on the cake to my beaten soul.

The morning of Robs actual birthday, I felt surprisingly calm and happy. I kept thinking to myself "what a good day this is" but I couldn't pinpoint why I felt that way. Sometime throughout my morning, it hit me. Today, October 12th was robs Actual due date! How cool is that?? He came fast and furry three wonderful weeks early, but October 12th was the date we held in our hearts for 9 months. It was that special date you put on a post when you are announcing your pregnancy.. the date I constantly gave family members and strangers who asked me when I was due. What a special date it was..and is. Its almost like 7 years ago, God gave us the date just for today. Here I was beating myself up for something as silly as forgetting the fall school schedule, yet his actual birthday party couldn't have fallen on a more appropriate time. It was like God was telling me.. "hey STOP stressing. I am enough and I have this for you." Interestingly enough todays sermon was all about having courage and trusting the Lord who is always working things for us. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

Robs birthday was a total hit (like it is every year!) He ends up having so much fun which makes me so happy but feel so silly about all the stressing! He even made the remark that this was "the best birthday ever." Why I make this momma stuff more complicated than it has to be is beyond me. I am thankful for a God who is constantly reminding me of His amazing grace though and for the sweetest boy who changed our lives forever 7 years ago. Its a good life we have 💚