11/8/20

Gratitude

 

The worlds a mess. I know. 

The future is uncertain and that can be very scary. I hear you. 

Current events just don’t seem right for some of you. Things feel unfair. I get it.


I may not share the same beliefs as many of you. But I share your frustrations. I, too, feel worried and frustrated for my own unique reasons. Sometimes I internalize these feelings. Other times I lash out. 

Neither have been productive. 


Nobody should tell you how to feel. Your personal feelings are rightfully yours. I respect that. 


But the leaves were extra beautiful today and I needed that. I felt so good during our family walk; a peace I can’t really explain. 


It made me realize that there are still things to celebrate. It may be as small as the leaves on the tree but I’ve learned over the years that God uses small things to make big changes. 


I’ve been through a lot this season and it poisoned my mind. My feelings are valid and real and I deserve to feel them. I’m allowed to be angry, upset, and bitter. But I don’t have to stay in this headspace. 


I can let God use the leaves on the tree to change my thoughts. I can heal. But it’s work. It requires patience. If requires you to be still so that you can actually see the beauty in front of you. When you are reactive, you miss it. And I don’t want to miss anymore 🧡